Maybe Monday - Memory of G

Memory - is what is left when something happens and does not completely unhappen.  A few days ago, I received a photo of a baseball card from No Guts No Glory.  

This was one of my son's baseball card when he was 9 yrs. old.  He also had another one where he was wearing a green uniform.  It is very interesting to read that his favorite team was the OAKLAND A's.  If he was still with us, he would have visited me and maybe I would take him to watch the game.  I remember taking him and his friend Andrew to a Blue Jay game.

Last week when Apple released the Ipad2, I wondered if I would have received a phone call from my son, asking me to line up so I could get him one of this new item from Apple.  The year before he died, while I was visiting Jeff, he had asked me to go the Apple store and buy him something - I think it was some sort of a hard drive - all I remember was it was white and a little heavy - it was called Time Capsule.

 A couple of days ago, I saw again a commercial on TV about this best cruise ever.  As you may recall from previous blog that he loved music and concerts.  My mind wondered again if he was still alive, I could have probably convinced him to go with me, he would meet me in Florida and we can both join this cruise.  See the line up and you will know why he would have gone.  

                                                 VH1 Best Cruise Ever 2011
Get ready to rock the deck, because VH1 and Sixthman are teaming up once again to bring you the ultimate music lover’s getaway – the VH1 Best Cruise Ever!
Set sail April 28 – May 2, 2011, from Tampa to Cozumel onboard the Carnival Inspiration and you’ll experience non-stop rock from VH1 faves Train, Lifehouse, Colbie Caillat, The Script and more than a dozen other bands, including Alpha Rev, Civil Twilight, Crowfield, The Daylights, Hope, Mat Kearney, Matt Wertz, Nikki Jean,  One eskimO, Ryan Star, SafetySuit, Thriving Ivory and late-night favorites, Trailer Park Ninjas! As you float through the Caribbean, you’ll also enjoy VH1-themed activities and contests – plus the chance to hang with your favorite artists! Did we mention you’ll be doing all of this onboard a full-service cruise ship with multiple pools, bars, restaurants, 24-hour room service and a full casino?

Of course Sunday is still one of the days when I think of him a lot as well as missing him too.  One of the precious moment that happened while he was still living with me was one evening while I was just sitting in our couch, he came out of his room and he sort of lay down his head on my lap like a little boy wanting to be loved.  It was very special because if you think of a 26 year old son who is about 5'10" trying to fit in a small couch with me sitting on it.  It was the way he looked and how he did not really say anything - I always wondered if maybe he wanted to tell me something but he couldn't.  Maybe I should have asked.  Maybe I should have noticed something.  But it's all too late now and all I have is the memory of G.